perhaps what i need is inspiration...

i've realized that some of the reason i have allowed my life to be saturated by Y is an apathy for where i am... i crave something different... something real to me... work hasn't seemed real in a while.. money, real because of the system set up around us... the city made real to me only by the people i meet.. the adventures.. the shows, the music... that is where i need to be... in the midst of things... doings that i'm passionate about... how do i do that?

as a side note, saw a guy wearing a t shirt i found worthy of a snicker...

"Support Your Local Music Scene... Sleep with a Musician"

dream.

been listening to Chevelle a lot lately... if you are a Tool fan i would highly suggest buying their cd... any cd...